Ever have one of those days when you just wish you could crawl back into bed and try again?
Some stagehands reset the clock, and wind the sun back down and arrange for the rest of the world to get back to starting positions for 5:45 am. You undress and put back on the PJs and curl up with your pillow over your head, another in your arms, and the kitty snoozing beside you (he never woke up, so someone just moved him). Then another person does the countdown, "3...2...1" and snaps the clapper, reading "Jan 5/06 - Take 2", just as the alarm buzzes again.
If that could happen, then today might have a chance. As it is, I don't know if I'll make it out in one piece. Nothing major has gone wrong - it's just been lots of small errors and challenges, and if this day were a database I'm working on, or something I'm knitting, I would have erased it or frogged it by now and started all over.
That's what I do, really. If something isn't going well, I like to dump it and begin again, fresh. It works for some things, but I guess in real life, in the 3-D, non-yarn world, I need to learn better how to fix things and move forward from that point. As for this morning, the mis-steps so far include a second snooze hit, forgetting to put on half my makeup, leaving my watch and rings at home, telling my boss that I had forgotten a meeting later today (which I had kind of, but I totally could have bluffed through, as I would have realised as soon as I opened my day book), and choosing to go with the green tea rather than the coffee. As soon as I realised that I wasn't looking my best today, I should have realised that it was a day that I'd have to go to head office for a meeting. It's just the way my world works. I am also realising that not having coffee severely depletes my vocabulary. This paragraph has been brought to you by the word 'realise', and its various permutations.
So I'm going to go and try to fix the things that I can from this point. I'm going to get a cup of coffee, and find what I can in my bag in terms of makeup and toiletries, and prepare for this meeting. Rest of the world - take 5. I'm indulgent that way.