I hate when the world seems to mock me when I'm sad.
I hate when I'm doing just fine with my avoidance and cheeriness and someone sincerely asks me how I'm doing and tells me they're thinking about me and then I have to stop avoiding thinking about the thing I must not think about.
I hate that the thing that is causing all this is "nothing".
How can a negative, the absence of a problem, cause such ...? I have no words.
So, sucky as it is, this will have to do for today's post, because my mum is very sick, but the tests are all negative and I want to be sad and worried for a bit.